I love sleeping in. I wake up once at 9AM and then decide if I want to wake up or sleep longer. I'll lay in bed for a full hour and watch Videos. I stand up, wash my face with water, rinse my mouth And then go eat breakfast for an hour while watching The Big Bang Theorie. I'll clean up the kitchen, unload and then load the dishwasher, And only then I will go brush my teeth, wash my face and change clothes. I need to do my bed because otherwise I can't be productive. Then I don't know what I'll do, depends on my plans. Maybe I'll procastinate on a project I should have finished weeks ago... Maybe I'll run some errands. Maybe it's my "death-day" (the day before my period starts) Then I'll lay in bed before going to sleep And feel Every. Single. Fucking. Fear. I have. I'll feel my anxiety And my hatred for my hormones. I'm completely unplugged Laying on my pillow Completely overwhelmed Ignoring everything and everyone. I then am someone I want nobody to see. –––––––––––– When somebody puts in the effort for me. When somebody asks me if I want to join them or spend a day with them. When I get an invitation. When someone greets me with a hug. When someone in a group setting asks ME a question. Or initiates a conversation with me. I feel like somebody when I don't have to put in all the effort all the time... ––––––––––––
